Will you SHUT UP?!? I thought to myself one day in 9th grade Comm Arts. Some guys in my class were screwing around and being loud and annoying as ever, and needless to say I was not enjoying it too much.
My friend Kaylie gave me a nudge and said "I want to throw them out so badly".
"You and me both sister" I responded.
As if on cue, my teacher suddenly started ushering them out of the room. As she did, one of the guys, came to the oh-so reasonable conclusion that she was racist and started accusing her of being racist. Kaylie facepalmed and asked me, "Ya think we're gonna have that kind of stupidity to deal with at the high school next year?
"God I hope not," I responded.
I don't lose my temper nearly as easily as I used to. Of course I'm still a snarker, but it's been quite some time since I got insanely abrasive. I remember being notorious when I was younger over how bent out of shape I would get over minuscule matters. Up until 7th grade where that reached its logical conclusion. That year my "friend" Cameron logged a lot of time taunting me over a girl I had a crush on, and was continuing to do it now, even though he was the reason I no longer had any sort of chance with her. One day while we were in science he was yelling at me across the room how I blew it and should've been more of man.
Like I said, he was the reason things between me and this girl fell apart, so I didn't take kindly to this. What was I supposed to do? Ignore him and let him off. No... that wasn't gonna cut it here. I had a better idea. Well, actually, it was a terrible idea, but at the time I was too angry (and inept) to be even mildly aware of that.
At the time this happened, I had my binder and two textbooks with me. I put all three items into my backpack and zipped it up. I then swung it around a few times, a la Super Mario 64, aimed at Cameron, and let 'er rip.
Well that did it.
When I threw my backpack, Cameron was standing in front of the large window that separated the storage closet from the rest of the classroom. He ducked when he saw my backpack coming, so it sailed OVER him and hit the window instead. The glass EXPLODED, and the next thing I knew it was EVERYWHERE. How everyone got out of that unscathed, I'll never know.
I stood in horror, and stared at what I'd just done. Not only had I attempted to bludgeon someone with a heavy-as-all-hell backpack, but in failing to do so, I destroyed at least a few hundred dollars in school property. All because of some guy who was being obnoxious with respect to my crush. That was more than a little unreasonable. To this day I'm amazed I didn't get expelled.
Nowadays, it's hard not to think back to this situation when I get mad. When I get mad now, the best thing I can do is isolate myself and take time to organize my thoughts. After my crush moved away, I didn't get bitter. After one of my close friends bailed on me for no good or real reason, I ultimately just said "screw 'im" and moved on. The bottom line is that my backpack debacle was 3 years ago, and I know now that I can't afford to let my temper get the better of me. Had I walked into class one day this year only for some guy to start getting taunted over the girl I liked the previous semester.
My friend Kaylie gave me a nudge and said "I want to throw them out so badly".
"You and me both sister" I responded.
As if on cue, my teacher suddenly started ushering them out of the room. As she did, one of the guys, came to the oh-so reasonable conclusion that she was racist and started accusing her of being racist. Kaylie facepalmed and asked me, "Ya think we're gonna have that kind of stupidity to deal with at the high school next year?
"God I hope not," I responded.
I don't lose my temper nearly as easily as I used to. Of course I'm still a snarker, but it's been quite some time since I got insanely abrasive. I remember being notorious when I was younger over how bent out of shape I would get over minuscule matters. Up until 7th grade where that reached its logical conclusion. That year my "friend" Cameron logged a lot of time taunting me over a girl I had a crush on, and was continuing to do it now, even though he was the reason I no longer had any sort of chance with her. One day while we were in science he was yelling at me across the room how I blew it and should've been more of man.
Like I said, he was the reason things between me and this girl fell apart, so I didn't take kindly to this. What was I supposed to do? Ignore him and let him off. No... that wasn't gonna cut it here. I had a better idea. Well, actually, it was a terrible idea, but at the time I was too angry (and inept) to be even mildly aware of that.
At the time this happened, I had my binder and two textbooks with me. I put all three items into my backpack and zipped it up. I then swung it around a few times, a la Super Mario 64, aimed at Cameron, and let 'er rip.
Well that did it.
When I threw my backpack, Cameron was standing in front of the large window that separated the storage closet from the rest of the classroom. He ducked when he saw my backpack coming, so it sailed OVER him and hit the window instead. The glass EXPLODED, and the next thing I knew it was EVERYWHERE. How everyone got out of that unscathed, I'll never know.
I stood in horror, and stared at what I'd just done. Not only had I attempted to bludgeon someone with a heavy-as-all-hell backpack, but in failing to do so, I destroyed at least a few hundred dollars in school property. All because of some guy who was being obnoxious with respect to my crush. That was more than a little unreasonable. To this day I'm amazed I didn't get expelled.
Nowadays, it's hard not to think back to this situation when I get mad. When I get mad now, the best thing I can do is isolate myself and take time to organize my thoughts. After my crush moved away, I didn't get bitter. After one of my close friends bailed on me for no good or real reason, I ultimately just said "screw 'im" and moved on. The bottom line is that my backpack debacle was 3 years ago, and I know now that I can't afford to let my temper get the better of me. Had I walked into class one day this year only for some guy to start getting taunted over the girl I liked the previous semester.